Saturday, July 5, 2008

C25K Day 1!

So I know it may seem like ive been on hiatus again but I promise I havent, my hunnie just happened to take the internet with him when he went to work this week (we have one of those USB port ones that we share between our two computers)

So the last week has gone okish... but today I was being lazy watching tv and I noticed a nice breeze and I decided to get off my ass and actually do my first couch to 5k work out. Duke even got to come with me :) It was very worth it, I am glad I made the decision to get up and get out there.

My thoughts on it so far... it wasnt too difficult, I figured it would be tough. I was out of breath at first but I just kept breathing and working through it, I did feel the muscles in my thighs by the time I finished up but nothing unbearable. I very well think that this program will be doable.... just have to see how difficult it gets but the great thing is if its too hard I can do-over a particular week.

So overall day one of C25K is a success!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

WI and update

So I didnt update yesterday because I didnt go online after work. WI showed me as down 1 pound (GRRRRR I was looking forward to seeing 181!!) So I was showing 183 but this morning when I weighed it was showing 181 again (I took 183 becuase it was still down one pound!) But for sure next week I *hope* I will be out of the 180s.

Yesterday's Menu:

FF yogurt - 2 points

Booster juice smoothie - 8 points

11 points - casserole

Todays is pretty much the same thing but so far Ive only had a smoothie. I have left overs from that casserole in the fridge waiting for me when I get home. I will probably have a yogurt and fruit as well.

In C25K news - its been raining since sunday I am so disappointed. Too bad I didnt have a tread mill (sigh)

Sunday, June 22, 2008

It's raining, It's pouring

Well as you can tell by my title, it decided to rain today. I am all but impressed! I was really hoping to start my running today. The only reason why I am not going out in the rain is because (as some of you may know) I live in an area where we have all of 2 paved streets in the town. Thus rain = mud = messy = not ruining my new shoes on the first day.

So instead I am going to have to switch things around! I am going to do my 20 min basic pilates DVD and maybe go on my gazelle (gag... i hate that thing its soooo painfully boring!!) But I will get some AP in this afternoon.

I also have to clean some more. I ended up not doing anything yesterday in terms of house work *oops* heheh.

I have planned what im having for supper so I can already put my menu up for the day :)

FF blueberry yogurt - 2 points

Subway (again im an addict)
Foot long Turkey with mustard - 12 points

1 Serving Campbell's Cheesy chicken and rice casserole - 8 points (yum)

Total: 22 points
If I find myself really hungry after supper I still have 3 points left for a snack plus whatever I earn for AP today. Worst case scenario I can make a big yummy salad for a very low amount of points (depending if I put dressing or not)

My exciting news for the day I did go to town and got myself a Timex watch. As you probably figured out I am doing my C25K outside so I need some way to track my time. I got a Timex because it has a stopwatch/timer feature and will beep at particular increments so I will know when to start running/ walking again! Its black and pink :) It also has a pulse feature so im pretty excited about that too because it was only 40 dollars!!

WI tomorrow (actually excited for this one!)

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Wonderful day

So I put on my new shoes today and have been wearing them around the house to help break them in. I am seriously going to do workout number 1 of C25K tomorrow. I figure my workout week is going to look like this:

Sunday - C25K + 20 minute walk
Monday - Pilates
Tuesday - C25K + 20 minute walk
Wednesday - Pilates
Thursday - C25K + 20 minute walk
Friday - Stability ball
Saturday - Day off

This week I work evening shifts as well as the weekend. I have a hard time with the turn around between working Thursday night and having to be in for Friday morning so if I do C25K Sunday Tuesday and Thursday I will be done for the week and Friday after work I can just do my stability ball routine to have an easy end to my workout week.

Today's eating and activity was great:

FF Yogurt - 2 points
1 Banana - 1.5 points

Stouffers Turkey Dinner (tv dinner) - 5 Points

Cheeseburger - 14 points (needless to say once they are gone I am looking into the vegetarian burgers from M&M's because they are low point!)
Fries - 4 Points

Total: 27.5 points

Stability Ball dvd - 1 AP
20 Mins walking dogs - 1 AP (very leisurely)
10 mins stair stepper - 1 AP

Total: 3 AP

I have also had 2 liters of water so far today :)
WI is in two more days... as of this morning I appear to be down about 1.5 pounds. Looking forward to tomorrow :)

Friday, June 20, 2008

I'm happy, Hope youre happy too!

What a great day today (see told you it would be)
The sky is looking a little bit stormy right now so we might have a thunderstorm today(I hope the hell not the roommates dog scratched at my door last night cus of a thunder storm... when i got up this morning she had actually managed to remove a CHUNK of wood from the door frame ...its at least 15 inches long and 1 inch wide at its largest point! Not a nice way to wake up in the middle of the night when you are scared of thunderstorms and have your own dog to comfort)

Otherwise today I went and paid for the tv stand got some new sneakers (WOOT! I am super psyched now!) and since I could literally eat subway everyday I got a foot long sub to eat for breakfast and lunch LOL

6 inch turkey sub - 6 points

6 Inch turkey sub - 6 points

HUGE salad with a little bit of vinegrette and chicken - 3 points
Low Fat french fries - 6 points

Hot chocolate - 1 point
2 small bananas - 2 points
1 WW bagel - 2 points
Peanut butter = 2 points.

Total:28 points

So I used 3 flex points today but mmm PB and bananas on a toasted bagel... sooo worth it to go over my daily total by a few points.

I spent the rest of my day cleaning. I vacuumed then steam cleaned the carpets in the hallway and living room, vacuumed/cleaned out the car and truck, dusted, did a little laundry, washed down the walls in my living room. I walked the dogs then I started having some down time.

Tomorrow is laundry, steam cleaning the carpet in the bedroom, moving furniture around to clean the carpets under them and I might do my first c2k5 work out becuase I am very excited about it now that I have new sneakers (they are super pretty blue and white) they even have reflectors on the back for if i was ever running in the dark (which I wouldnt around here... too many wild animals in this area) But still... i have reflectors hahah

Thursday, June 19, 2008

MMM milkshake

Today was crazy busy because of the sale... I feel kind of bad for my coworker because shes stuck working the weekend alone and its going to be INSANE!! But I really could stand the weekend off.

Today I feel very satisfied in terms of hunger.

Booster Juice "Very Berry" smoothie - 7 points

French Fries - 5 points
Big sandwich - 6.5 points

Total - 18.5

So I have 6.5 points left. I am surprised that ive not been starving all day because I missed breakfast. I decided to sleep in till 6 this morning (normally I leave my house by 6!) So I didnt have time to pack anything into my purse to bring with me for my drive.

When I got home I emptied all of the garbage out of my car and my sweeties truck. I also cleaned the surfaces in the truck (dash windows etc) and I plan to vacuum the truck and my car out tomorrow. My car is soooooooo filthy!!

Tomorrow I am going to do some shopping. I have to cash my cheque, pay off whats left oweing on our new tv stand arrange a day to pick that up, get a new pair of sneakers (for starting C25K... my roommates dog pooped in mine, I threw them out!) I really should tell roommie that I want him to pay for my new shoes ... anyway regardless I am going to have a great day tomorrow! I have decided its going to be awesome :)

To use the last of my points today I think I may make a chocolate milkshake :) Its times like these when I am happy mom bought me a magic bullet blender thing for christmas LOL

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Busy Day

Oi Today was such a busy day at work. I am very proud of myself for taking Duke for a small walk just now. I got home and didnt expect to leave the house again but I promised Duke this morning we would walk when I got home so after I made myself some supper then did dishes we went for our walk.

So I have had a good OP day so far:

1.5 cups of honey nut cheerios - 4 points

Booster juice "Strawberry Sunshine" Smoothie - 7 Points

Sandwich - 6.5 points.

Total: 17.5 points.

So ive got 7.5 points left for the day. Its only 7:30 right now so I will probably have a snack before bed. I bought some bananas today so maybe I will have some FF yogurt with a banana or something. I also have some WW bagels and cottage cheese that need to be eaten as well.

I have also had 1000 ml's of water today so I want to try to manage to guzzle down another 500 mls before bed

My Exciting news for the day. My new tv stand arrived at the furniture store yesterday... I got paid today so I am going to pay the rest of it off on Friday and schedule a day to go get it (cant go until my sweetie comes back from work).

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Practice week

So I am thinking this week is going to be my intro to being back on track.

Not that I plan on going over my points or anything but I am trying to make sure that I track, drink my water, get my AP's, make good choices and plan! I dont want to be too hard on myself but I need to get back into the swing of things and I think giving myself a week to "get used to it" before I get too hard on myself if I

Next week I am going to count as week one back OP (even though im going to be OP this week... )

But anyway here is what I have had for food today. I am allowed 25 points per day.


6 inch turkey sub from subway (with cheese) - 6 points


Hamburger with cheese,ketchup and mustard - 12 points

Cheese and crackers - 3 points
FF yogurt - 1 point

Which puts me up to 22 points so far today. Ive also had 1000ml's of water so far... I plan on getting another 1000 in before the day is out.

In an effort to save money I am going to start packing lunches to take to work. something really great is that ive learned to actually like mustard so I will save points by bringing sandwiches without mayo!

I am not sure what im going to do for activity today but I plan on doing something before bed tonight!
Today has been a success!

Monday, June 16, 2008

My bright idea

So last night just after I posted I had an amazing idea.
if I can do this running thing, i mean really do it and learn to run and stick to it... if each week that I completed the workouts for the C2K5 I put say... 10 dollars into a jar if it only took the 9 weeks to finish the program thats 90 dollars I would have saved up.

If there were a few weeks that I have to repeat in order to not feel like im pushing myself too hard then that would be even more money. My bright idea is use this money I save up to buy a really great pair of running shoes as a gift to myself. This will be a big accomplishment for me and I think it is definitely worthy of a reward!

WI today showed me down 3 pounds from last week (uggh i went back up to 187 last week) so im at 184 today... im really hoping this exercise and PLANNING that I am doing will get me over this hump. I want to get to goal by christmas so I am going to have to do the work to get there.

I dont remember who it is on the ww boards but in their siggy they have "if you always do what you always did, you will always get what you always got" and this is so true. I need to step things up a notch and I know that I can do it. I just have to plan well. I did go to the grocery store today and picked up a variety of low point foods so we will see how this week goes.

Lastly for this post, I am going to try to start updating everyday and putting my food log on my blog. It helps give me the accountability!

Sunday, June 15, 2008

One day off is not enough!

Well it has been about 2 weeks since Ive updated but everybody probably knows what Ive been up to - the usual!

Work has been going well but I am just exhausted this week. Today is my one day off so I slept in until about 9, got up and walked my puppy for about an hour. When we returned home I did the dishes, scrubbed the bathroom and started some laundry. I am hoping to get some energy to do a bit more house work before the day is done.

My sweetie goes back to work tomorrow after being rained out for a week so I need to make sure the laundry gets finished so I can help him pack his bag.

I work 730-430 shifts this week. It is due to be my long weekend this weekend coming however its a big sale at work and I might have to work Friday Saturday and Sunday... if this is the case its another 20 hours or so but I am just exhausted, I could really stand a good weekend off. When I go to the bank to discuss my loans I am thinking of opening another account just to put money in as a savings account... if I can save some money while paying off my bills things will be golden.

Now weight update. I am still hovering around the same mark... I fluctuate between the same 3 pounds right now. I seriously think my body is trying to tell me now that I need to start working on my fitness. So my goal for the next few weeks is try to get some sort of fitness routine going. I think that if I am burning some extra calories it will be the boost my body needs to start dropping the weight again.

Even so, just starting to exercise will help my body because I will be able to tone up. Some of my body parts such as my arms are just a little bit droopy but I know exercise will help that.

So my big idea is... I want to learn to run. I have never been able to run ever in my life. Lots of people on the WW boards have said wonderful things about the couch to 5k program ( and I seriously think it would be a good thing to try. If I can just get out there and do it I can guarantee great things will happen to my body!! I hope that I can bring duke with me when I learn to run so he can learn to run next to me. This way he gets some exercise too :)

The other thing I need to get back into is my pilates. I love it! It is very relaxing and it is also something that can do great things for ones body. So I need some encouragement guys!! I need to get serious about this because ive got 45 pounds to go and I want to get there by christmas time!! Lets do it!

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Simplicity at its best

I rediscovered something last night - How much i really enjoy a mixed salad with ranch dressing.

Tonight for 6 points I am having a HUGE bowl of salad made up of:

Romaine Lettuce
Green and red peppers
Shredded cheese
and low cal ranch dressing.

All I can say is YUM! It has made for a very enjoyable meal. I have quite a few points left over today so if I am hungry for a snack later I may make some nachos :) All OP of course!

I didnt get online yesterday to update but it was WI day and I was down 1 pound woowhoo. I am well on my way to achieving my birthday goal weight.

I am sitting at 152 days pop free! How nutty is that? Pretty incredible I think... I am about 5 weeks away from the 6 month mark (july first will be 6 full months) I am just amazed with myself.

So goals for this week, keep walking the dogs everyday, stay within my points and count every bite and just take care of myself :)

Friday, May 30, 2008

"New" clothes

Ok So this one is going to be short!

Ive been keeping very busy this week as its my week to work 56 hours. Add the 2 hours a day of driving to and from work to that 56 hours and that puts me at 68 hours of time from my week I've had to put in. So im pretty tired.

Anyway I did something fun this past weekend, I cleaned out my closet. I know it doesnt sound fun but when you are losing weight and have held on to "skinny" clothes because you swore to fit into them again its lots of fun

I will have to take some update photos in some of my "skinnier" clothes.

From the looks of the scale I am down about 3 pounds so we will see how it goes on monday!

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Long Weekend

All I have to say is hooray for my new job and long weekends. I am so tired today!! I am going back to bed shortly. I was hoping it wouldnt rain this weekend as I wanted to start working on my fitness (have we seen a common theme here yet? yeah thats right im lazy and exercise can be tough for me to stick to)

I dont like taking the puppy for walks when its raining because there are no paved streets so we both get covered in mud! But he sleeps on my couch and my bed so him being muddy is no good!

I dont really have that much to say, I lead a pretty boring life. I will update on monday when I wi

Monday, May 19, 2008

WI day

Down a half pound this week which is down 6.5 pounds this month so im doing ok. Hopefully I will have a big loss next week, small .5lbs ones are hard on my ego haha.

Also I just realized that I havent had a single drink of any kind pop for 140 days WOOWHOO!

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Hooray for long weekends

So I must say the number one perk of my new job is every other weekend I get Friday, Saturday and Sunday off. Basically I work 32 hours one week and 56 the next to balance it out and give me 88 hours per pay cheque. Its pretty awesome.

It has been a pretty relaxing weekend. I came home to my house and did a tonne of laundry and cleaned the house. Back to work tomorrow so I will be going back to Bella's tomorrow evening.

So in weight loss news I snuck a peak at the scale today and this week I appear to be down 2.5lbs... we will see how it goes tomorrow morning. I was thinking about things last night and I have really goofed off big time with the whole getting to goal situation. I was hoping to be at goal by my birthday this year but it is not reasonable. I cant lose 45 pounds by august - its not healthy. So I think I am going to alter my timeline a little bit and hope to hit goal by Christmas. There are 32 weeks until Christmas so that gives me more than enough time if I can stay OP to lose the last of my weight.

My birthday goal for this year instead is going to be to reach 160 lbs. That's 26 pounds and if I have 2 really good weeks that I lose more than 2 lbs those weeks I will be right where I am hoping to be.

Its funny, I've actually lost a fair amount of weight and kept it off (maintained) instead of gaining it all back (or losing more sadly but its ok I will get there) and I STILL find it hard to believe that I will ever get to goal.

Don't get me wrong I know that it is not impossible because clearly I have lost over 50 pounds but I just cannot picture myself at goal. I find myself more and more looking into the mirror and admiring how well I've done but I just cant picture the image of me looking into the mirror and seeing what I would look like at goal.

So I am hoping that come christmas time I will be able to report that I have reached goal and maintained my total loss.

WI tomorrow!

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Its offical

Well I am ofically skinny.

Since I have a professional job now and need to wear dressy clothes everyday I went to go shopping after work today for a few more dress shirts as I only had about 5. I was trying to find Reitmans and I knew there was one a few blocks from work. Well I saw the sign for Reitmans, pulled into the parking lot but I pulled into the wrong enterance. I drove passed Penningtons and I had an "A HA!" moment. I was thinking to myself well if I cannot find Reitmans I can try Penningtons! Then I had a HUGE "AHA" moment.. I cant wear size 14 anything anymore!! So seeing as I cannot fit into plus size clothes anymore and have no need for the speciality stores I am offcally skinny !! WOOWHOOO!!

Saturday, May 3, 2008

Happy News

So last friday I applied for a few jobs. One was a car dealership and the main reason I applied to it was because I knew where it was LMFAO I am not familiar with the north or east end of the city so I stuck to what I did know. They called me back on monday, asked for an interview with me on tuesday. I went in, got the job and started my first shift on tuesday afternoon! How cool is that?

I worked tues-fri this week... and so far i love my job, im already trained adn get to work on monday morning all by myself *ooo scary!!* haha. I actually did the majority of the work yesterday by myself anyway ( I was left to tend to the desk for like 5 hours by myself so clearly they trust that I can handle the job haha)

But overall it should be a good gig, the latest I would work (on evning shifts) is 9pm. Week one is days, week two is nights and I rotate back and forth, every second weekend I get a long weekend (the week I work days I finish on thursday and dont have to go back till monday at noon!)And there is also potential for me to move up with the company, which is really awesome because who wants a dead end job!

I took a sneak peek at the scale and it shows me as down 3.5 pounds this week, so hopefully on monday I will still be seeing the same number (or lower!)

Monday, April 28, 2008

A year in review

So I know it is a few days early but *happy 1 year anniversary* to me!

In the past year lots of crazy and exciting things have happened for me. The two big ones are that I got on track with Weight Watchers and lost over 50 pounds (although I could have easily made it to goal already if I could just REALLY stick to it hahah) and I moved pretty much the whole way across the country, away from my entire family and all of my friends to Alberta.

I have held a job for 10 months that I absolutely dispised by the end of it but I survived. I have a job interview lined up for tomorrow morning at a car dealership so that is very exciting (also exciting is the fact that I actually know how to drive in the city to said location LOL ...god I hate driving in Edmonton) So hopefully I will be able to report back with good news about that potential job. (I really hope I get it, I cannot even begin to describe how badly I want that job)

In the past year I have also been homeless... crazy I know but it happened for about a month!

I went home on a "vacation"... it wasnt truely meant to be a vacation as my cousin had passed away so it started out as a trip for a funeral but I had to make the best of times. Duke had his first (and hopefully LAST) trip on an airplane... it was more nerve wrecking for his mommy than it was for him.

I dont really have much else to say on this... other than for this next year coming I am hoping to a) get a new job, b) consolidate my bills (mom if you are reading this I have been thinking long and hard and I will be hitting up the bank as soon as I get my first pay stub!) c) try to pay off 50% of what I owe by next may (sounds crazy but I can live off of cheerios and salad if the need be LOL)

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Week 1 back OP

So I did sign back up for etools this week and my typical WI day is monday so I figured today would be a good time to update since tomorrow will technically be week two.

First of all I must say I feel awesome becuase I have exercised 5 days this week... tonight I plan on getting an hour walk with with my cousin and my dog will come along.(so today would be day 6 of exercise). If I get my full one hour walk in I will have earned... THIRTY... thats right 30 activity points this week!! I am so proud of myself!!

I havent really sat down to figure out any sort of schedule this time around ive just been doing the activity. I think that I may just do a little something every single day for now but I know taking time to rest is important... I just dont want one day to turn into two to turn into three where I am just starting out! (I am out of shape but not so out of shape that I cannot walk for an hour a day)

Exciting thing number 2 is that my tae bo dvd is at my cousins house and since I am home I can pick it up and give that another try. The last time I tried it I was 235 and way too out of shape to do even 10 mins... so I think I might give it a go now that I am over 50 pounds lighter and a little more active than I was to begin with.

Thirdly, I am going at the plan as if I didnt know anything this time around, I check all my points values before I even start to prepare my meal and really think about if I am willing to use x amoutn of points on a particular thing. Its been helpful for keeping me OP.

So thats all for now, from the looks of my body the exercise is paying off but I wont know number wise how much weight ive lost till I get back to my scale (i refuse to WI on somebody elses!)

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Long over due update

So It has been a few weeks since ive posted anything, mostly as I have been home and dont really have anything interesting to say. But, I do have some great news from the past few days that I just have to share.

1) I signed back up for etools and got back on track (no more eating whatever I want, the local food that I cant get in AB would have me 55 pounds heavier in no time if I didnt limit myself!!)
2) I baked up a storm over the last 2 weeks and I have decided that I have done enough baking so that will eliminate that temptation (althought I was very good and whatever I made I packaged it up and delivered it to friends and family to get it out of my house)
3) I have exercised for 3 days in a row and earned 18 AP this week so far!! This is my number one problem, sticking to an exercise plan on any sorts. So far this week I am kicking my own ass and intend to keep it up.

AND most importantly... I hit a new milestone with one of my personal goals. It is day 101 that I have not had any pop to drink!! how INCREDIBLE is that?

So overall I am feeling great! I dont have my own scale to weigh myself on which is making me sad but I am taking all the right steps to make sure that I am successful while I am away on vacation and also to make sure I am on track to reaching my goal. I know I will do it by my birthday. I am so motivated right now and I am going to bust my butt off to get there! I cant wait to get back to Alberta and get on my scale to see my progress (lol for all of you scale junkies out there you can imagine how weird this is because I do weigh myself a few times a week... sometimes a few times a day!!)

Friday, March 21, 2008

WI (early)

Ok all so I decided to WI today before I leave for NS because I am not bringing my scale with me (how neurotic would that be?!).

So WI today 181!! I am only supposed to Wi on monday but oh well.

Wooowoo thats 54.5 lbs. only 45.5 to go.

I am going to be gone until april 15th so i think that I will just WI on the following monday as I normally would. I just dont want to start using somebody elses scale. So today is the 21 ...the monday after I return will be the 21 so lets aim for 10 pounds while im gone. I know I am going to get a tonne of activity in becuase I will be out and about alot with my friends and family and of course my puppy.

So if i am lucky my next weight update will be showing me around 170 *crosses fingers*

I will post most likely satruday afteroon or sunday morning to let you all know I got home safe

till then

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Its a big week

Hi everybody.

I know I havent really been around lately but here I am with an update.

My cousin passed away on sunday, so I will be flying back home this weekend. It is one of those amazingly bitter sweet situations. I am so excited to be able to go home and spend a few weeks with my family and friends (who I have not seen for almost a year) but the reason why I am going home in the first place is so sad.

Just from what has happened in my life in the past 5 years ... I know that I am allowed to be sad but I cannot let myself get into that horrible depressed state that I get into when things get tough. I am going to go home and spend time with my family because we need to (and should be together) right now and at the same time I am going to live my life to the fullest. I already have plans with my best friend for the day after I arrive home... our tradition, a sub from subway and the newest episode of "The L Word" (so for all of you L word fans who are reading do not forget Sunday night SEASON 5 FINALE!!) It will be so nice to have some of those little things that I cannot have here in Alberta. I have so many people who want to see me, I plan on making time for all of them.

I am very excited that an old friend who i had lost touch with for years will be home this weekend so I will get to see her... it will be amazing shes since had a baby and is engaged and all that wonderful stuff... I cant wait.

As for weight loss and being home... there are lots and lots of foods that I can get on the east coast that I cannot here. For example:

-Fresh Atlantic Ocean fish (YES normally I would eat it deep fried but I am going to be a good girl and bake it ...I am still eating it with tartar sauce though!! no ifs ands or buts LOL)

-A real donair with the good sauce - I know they have donairs everywhere but none are as good as home (to me at least) ... since donair meat makes me sick from being so spicy I wont be eating lots of this... one will be enough

-Rappie pie - Nuff said...

These things among many many others will be very tempting while I am home. But i have a plan

Duke is coming home with me so we will be going to the BEACH... yes the beach that is next to THE OCEAN (can you tell im excited) for walks... that is our place and I have missed it so much... just weeks ago i was crying because i wanted to go to the long as I can secure a vehicle we will probably walk on the beach everyday... if not we will walk around town everyday for sure and also mom has a treadmill so I will be able to exercise at home as well.

SO between the bad food I know I will eat, and the good exercise i am sure to get... it shoudl be ok... I am bringing all of my WW materials with me because I want this to be a successful trip home... I WILL NOT come back to Alberta heavier than I am the day I leave (I will seriously weigh myself on friday before I leave!!) I dont like to WI on anything but my scale but I am not being so psychotic as to bring it with me LOL so I will be watching very carefully what I eat and my activity etc.

I will be taking lots of pictures (which I was slack about sorry) while I am hanging out with my family and friends SO there should be update photos of me looking good in my street clothes soon!

OH and I also booked an appointment with my hair dresser back home for a cut (I know it was to be my reward for reaching 158 pounds but I trust her with my hair!! so you will all get to see the better side of me YAY)

Until next time !

(I will post the first chance I get when I get home so everybody knows im safe!)

Tuesday, March 11, 2008


I swear I havent been neglecting my blog I have just been busy AND lacking the internet.

Quick update, still losing down to 183 as of last week. I put on an outfit I havent worn in a few weeks and its bigger, im excited about that! WI tomorrow!

I am so sick and tired of my job as pretty much everybody knows so today was the day - I left my house at 9am with 40 resumes and drove to town and passed them out. I got a job offer within an hour but turned it down because the idiot did not understand the concept of "Will not work nights" (the girl who accepted my resume wrote in block letters right on it that I would not work nights!) To make it clear I explained to the silly man that if I loved working nights that much, I wouldnt be looking for a new job in the first place!

Um other than that, just life... I can walk outside again because its spring and the ice and snow is all melted off the roads, now I only have to deal with mud (with all the stains on the carpet from dukes belly I am *almost* starting to like the idea of snow and ice more because a wet tumm tumm is better than a wet and muddy tumm tumm all over mommys white carpet...and bed!)

So yes I shall update tomorrow possibly if I have any important news (such as if I get a job! haha)

Till next time

Monday, February 25, 2008

50 pounds

WOOOWHOOOOOOOO I did it, I have lost 50.5 pounds! I weighed exactlyy 185 today! That means only 50 pounds till goal!!

Here are my update photos. I apologize for the angle and that my head is cut out but autotimer can only do so much hehe.
Also when I pasted the comparison pics all together they arent all the same size but you have to bear with me I dont have a photo editing program!

Look at how much better my back looks from 50 pounds ago HOLY COW!!!
And do you see that? I have the startings of a collar bone OMG!!! And can we say waist? I have a waist!! This is amazing. I also can see a big difference in my face...
I will take some nice pictures later on today of me in regular clothes also. I just wanted to get these up first thing for Shrunk instead of making her wait all day hehe.

So either tonight or tomorrow check back for other update photos. Seeing as I just got home from work I am not exactly "nice photo" ready haha.

Till next time :)

Sunday, February 24, 2008

I Miss the internet!!

WOW I use the internet more often than I think that I do!

Just a mini update
a) this week I am applying for MORE new jobs, I am praying that I get a new one this week so I can quit the hotel, its taking such a tole on me!
b)WI day is tomorrow... *fingers crossed* I may just hit my 50 pounds this week :D
c)It has been beautiful here which means I am able to walk outside again :) hooray

Also as you can see by my ticker I havent had a drink of any type of pop for 55 days!! So proud of myself!

Not much else going on but I will update tomorrow with my WI.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

WI day

Down to 187! 1.5 more pounds until ive lost 50 pounds, I so hope I hit it next monday!!

Nothing interesting to say today, no internet for four more days so I will update when i am back at work :)

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Shemales and evading the po-po

So last night I come back to work and am bored out of my mind...I realize tonight on the drive to work I didnt even THINK to update my blog haha. So I have 2 stupid stories then some stuff that might be more interesting.

1) last night I was driving 100 in a 70 zone and drove RIGHT by the cops! so when I get to the intersection just down the road I was so turning off the road becuase I figured they would follow me then pull me over ... well I took a right at the intersection and a random left somewhere on that particular road... the cops never followed me ...that or I lost them becuase I lost myself... I had no freaking clue where I was LOL 5 minutes of driving around messed up curved roads ive never been on before I found my way back to the road I work on.

2) tonight I am driving to work (dont worry I wasnt speeding) and I am turning onto
the street I work on and there is a political sign in the ditch (thats where they put it up, it wasnt thrown into the ditch) and I glanced at it and I swear it said "Shemale" I slammed on the breaks and did a double take LOL turns out it actually said "Schmale" ... I was a little disappointed when I realized I was wrong LOL I am amused by the stupidest stuff!

So I started applying for more new jobs, they arent in town though so I would still have to drive to and from work but I need out of nights. Other bad job related news - one girl is quitting and the other is having problems with her pregnancy so shes out on medical leave so I am so going to be guilt tripped into staying here I know it... but I gotta move on.

I dont really have much else to say other than I have been without internet for a week so thus the lack of blog updates however I am going to first of all - find my digital camera this week and then take some update photos to post to celebrate my 50 pounds lost woowhooo. So till then (or until I get something better to say lol)

Saturday, February 9, 2008

For Asian Dragon

Here is a pic of my puppy :)

Everything in my life is BROKEN today!!

Oh boy, I had a great day today.

Firstly it snows all night and then the wind picked up so it was -29 with a windchill of who knows what (it felt like a -35 day to me!) So I dont know whether its a good idea or not to drive home... I went anyway it was fine, however I misplaced my mittens so it was DAMN cold for a while!

Fast forward to home. I get out the car and I brought my laundry to work last night so I had to unload that too. I struggle with these two huge bags but I get them into the house! I decide to bring the laundry downstairs then get duke to let him out to pee. Since this is me we are talking about go figure something is bound to go horribly wrong! I grab the bags ... one in front of me one behind me and I get to the stairs, which are somewhat narrow but I have seen worse! 2 people cannot walk side by side up them! There is no railing and the entire right hand side is entirely exposed (no wall or rail or anything). So I get about 8 steps from the bottom and the bag of laundry, whcih just happened to be the heaviest one, decidest that its going to slide by the edge where there is no wall then fall over said edge...

Lets do a little mental addition

Candace + Stairs + loss of balance = ouch. Thats right the bag pulled me to the right and i tripped when I tried to balance myself out so I fell down the stairs. At the bottom I get up and tripped over my own two feet and managed to somehow "land" on my big toe... I bent it over on itself and it hurt sooooo bad!!! I almost passed out (I have a shitty pain tolerance level, a really bad charlie horse can make me pass out... this was sooo bad) So I am rolling around on the floor holding my toe then I get to that point where I was blacking out so i rolled on my side and just breathed and I pulled myself out of it. After I realize that im ok and nothing is broken and I havent passed out I crack up laughing at myself. At this point I stand up and duke comes flying at me out of nowhere so clearly BFF woke up and opened the bedroom door. He got dressed after he heard the "crash bang boom OUCH" to come see if I was ok. I could barely walk on my right foot just because of my fresh injury hurting really bad but I went on with my day. After I got up the top of my foot has a bruise about the size of a toonie on it... but oddly my toe hurts inb the first joint, its bruised on top of my foot at the second joint so dont ask me how I did that! But yes It still hurts.

Fast forward again to when I wake up and figure out what to make for supper. I get my recipe out ask BFF if he would like it we agree that it would be a yummy change, I make my grocery list then head out the door. Get into my car, it wont start.. tried 2 times, go into the house yell to BFF for the keys to the truck (i was just going to run to the store in his truck then come home and deal with my car afterwards cus I was very hungry) He puts on his jacket to come help me, he asked to hear the noise my car made trying to start, I turn the key BAM it starts (go figure) fine, we let it run cus it was freezing out and for some reason my entire engine, battery ... everything under the hood was completely covered in snow?!?!
We go together to the store, come back, I turn off the car and go in the house.

Fast forward to 10pm. I get up from my nap shower pack my bag etc, 10 oclock is later than I usually leave but I slept in a bit, so I head out the door and get in the car, no lights no movement no noise... I go back in the house and tell BFF. He comes to take a look thinking I have a battery cable loose... it is dark and freezing out... he said he would fix it in the morning, he drove me to work. May I remind you its 58 kms each way and he has to come get me in the morning so thats 200+ KMS just for driving me to work and picking me up... I have 2 more nights this week.

Even worse... if my car needs to go to a mechanic:
2) He goes back to work 700kms away from home on TUESDAY :S
3) I would have no way to get to work until I could get my car back
Hopefully its just my battery but its fairly new... who knows... I hope he can fix it tomororw.

OH and thirdly the other thing broken in my life. My poor puppy must have had sympathy pains for mommy today becuase he hurt his leg today too... hes limping a little but it is probably from slipping on ice, if hes still doing it tomorrow I will call the vet but he will probably sleep it off (maybe just tender!)

I still cant believe I fell down the stairs haha

PS I havent had Pop of any kind for 40 days, Im adding a ticker to the side of my blog to track... my short term goal is 1 year no pop bah

Friday, February 8, 2008

Why? (long and dreadfully honest)

Do you ever wonder why ? (queue music for hit show of the early 90's haha)
Seriously I was reading Howse6977's blog and she had a post about WHY. Why do you want to lose weight. So I got to thinking, hey I should ask myself why do I want this. But it made me think back to a post Susan made on the WW boards a while ago about how she wanted to get to the bottom of WHY she got overweight in the first place to try to help her better understand why she had been struggling with staying OP.

So since I am waiting for my laundry to finish up (yes I am at work doing my laundry because my washer at home is broken) I thought hey what fun would it be to think of my Whys and maybe that will help me beat the winter blahs, stop bingeing (uggh cant stop at all i dont know whats wrong with me this last week) and move forward cus I dont want to be fat anymore!

So here goes the fun!

Why am I fat?

Well I wasnt always fat! I do know this, however I *thought* I was fat. Ok yes I had some "baby fat" going on but I was not fat or unhealthy!! This is one thing I totally hate about society is how weight and fatness is such a Big deal (haha pun intended). I can remember in the 4th grade that we used to take swimming lessons at the local YMCA through the school. Once a week they would bus us to the Y and we would have our swimming lessons then go back to school to catch the bus to go home. Now this is going to probably break some hearts but I can remember that I needed a new bathing suit and my mom went and got me one and I was all thrilled and 2 of my friends got the same one as me but they had black and I had pink. We somehow got talking about sizes and weight... do not ask me why as 8 and 9 year old kids we were talking about this but we did. Anyway I remember I weighed something like 94 pounds and my friends were saying how they weighed 70 something pounds and clearly you can make the connection 70 ish is 20 some pounds lower than 90 pounds and nobody else weighed near as much as I did so there we have it I was the fat kid. Did I mention that I was probably about 5 fricken feet tall when I was in the 4th grade (My mom used to have to buy me clothes from the petite womens section in elementary school becuasse I was too tall for normal little girls clothes this I also remember clearly!) My mama reads my blog so she will remember buying me short women pants (lol poor Izzy, shes about as tall as I was in elementary school Big puffy heart ya Izzy!)

So yes back to my point no word of a lie I used to think I was fat in elementary school. Ask my mother, I grew fast, I was off the charts when I went to the doctor! But since I was a little kid and didnt know what I know now about health and growing I had no clue that I wasnt fat I just thought that the more you weighed the fatter you were! So thats my heart break story for the day. Ps I had an older brother and he would tease me but you know how it is... kids are cruel, that didnt help convince me I wasnt fat!

I remember still weighing decent numbers through jr high. I remember the summer before high school I went to visit my Aunt in Ontario for the summer and I dont know if I was trying to lose weight or not (I totally remember having home made chocolate milkshakes ALL the flipping time! Not very healthful!) but I remember getting on her scale at her house and I remember seeing 168 pounds on her scale. That summer I lost a bit of weight but it was cus me and Jared were out and about so much. But I do specifically remember the numbers I saw being like 163,165 and 168 I remember weighing that much at 15!! Just a reminder note for my current height 168 is my highest possible healthy weight before overweight so yes I was slightly shorter then... maybe 5'6 (i'm 5'9) but just for a comparison I was pretty much at a healthy weight then.

I dont recall my weight through highschool. However I am currently 189 pounds (well as of last WI I missed mine on monday)and I can fit into pants I wore in my senior year of high school. So my guess is I was probably in the higher 180's range in grade 12.

Now I dont recall what I weighed in my earlier years of jr high but just from the summer after grade 9 to the end of grade 12 I had gained about 20 pounds (based on the fact that I am currently wearing those pin stripe pants I just mentioned) I was never in sports as a kid, I had a wild imagination and when I was little I used to go out and play, I rode my bike places. In jr high high school I didnt have any real extra curriculars other than band and memorial club and they werent really highly active (other than the marching band, hard not to be active when you walk when you play music!) So I am betting on lack of exercising being part of why I got fat!

I dont recall many of my eating habits but I do know that I am one of those people who NEVER ate breakfast!! I know its the "most important meal of the day but I used to be so sick to my stomach first thing in the morning that I could never eat breakfast or I would be ill. Who knows if this had a serious impact on my weight or not, I would probably say yes... my aunt has a theory that my mom is the thinnest of the her and her 2 sisters because she always ate breakfast (always did still always does every single day!) I think part of my sick stomach in the mornings was nerves... once I got to high school I felt HORRIBLE every single day till i got to school... i think I was just so damn nervous to go that it literally made me sick.

On the topic of eating habits I remember many instances of when I would eat more than I needed to just becuase. Who knows if this was hard wired into my brain or what but I do recall eating more than I needed to as a kid even. I always ate really fast that I can remember. I wrote a post before I deleted everything on my blog about how I used to just have sick binges on mcdonalds at 11pm every single day of the week (I think the total was something like 38 points just for my evening meal after eating regular meals throughout the day - I only get 24 points a day at my current weight! At my highest weight I got 26) Which brings me to another point I totally ate when I wasnt hungry every single day!

It is possible that im genetically predispositioned to have these impulses to eat many people in my family have extra weight on! So I dont think I really know how to answer why I would eat so much but I know that when I was out of highschool doing the mcdonalds thing it was a lot to do with being lonely, I had one friend in town everybody else was at univeristy... a lot to do with stress too... I hated my job at the time, then after I quit I was unemployed and depresed. So clearly I know a lot of it is to do with emotions but I dont know how to explain it from when I was young.

I am sure that 2 really big things did contribute to me gaining weight. I watched my best friend die when I was 17 years old and although I knew she was sick and would die well before most people would want for somebody they love, I was expecting it and somewhat prepared. But no matter how prepared you are for a death you cant stop your feelings. I love her very much to this day and I know the after math of her death probably played a role in me gaining weight. A year and a month after Anita passed away, my cousin Jared (the one I spent that summer in Ontario with, I loved him so much, he was a year younger than me, a lot of my childhood memories that I can actually remember involve him!) was killed in a drunk driving accident. That was so much harder than Anita passing away becuase I knew she was ill, losing Jared like that was one of the hardest things thats ever happened to me! Both events really messed me up emotionally. I am sure that food was my friend during that time! From the time I was 17 (about 180-190 pounds) till I was 21 (higest weight 235.5 pounds) I had gained 40-50 pounds... it didnt happen over night and it wasnt by accident. I am sure it was my emotional eating and maybe even filling the voids in my life with food...

Right now I know its becuase of how depressing this winter is. When the temp drops below -25 there is little hope that summer is around the corner! hahaha

Why am I still fat?
I dont exercise nearly as much as I should. I have always had a problem committing to exercise, I do awesome for a while then I take too long of a break then I am at scratch again.

I still eat when I am not hungry! I also binge. Why do I do this? Somedays I dont know! I would say 95% of the time its emotional. I get the I dont care I give up attitude over whatever is bothering me and I blow it. ANd for anybody whos ever tried to lose weight we all know that when this happens you and blow it you tend to think "Well I ruined this day I will start over tomororow" so you eat like crap for the rest of the day becuase you "can" because you "messed up" your entire day in one meal... so not the case!! And usually, tomorrow doesnt come, or it comes too late when youve dug yourself deeper into the pit you have to climb out of. (But I suppose it is never really too late, it just feels that way)

On a happy note this doesnt happen everysingle day or week, I go through phases that sometimes I cant keep my hands off food... I think we all do this at one point or another

AND Why do I want to lose weight? (this is the good one)

-I want to feel good about myself and be comfortable in my own body (nothing hurts more than hating yourself!! I am freaking awesome!! I shouldnt ever feel like that!)
-I want to feel pretty (I totally hate how i look)
-I dont want to get more unhealthy than I already was
-I DO want to be as healthy as I can be (we all have to die from something, but I dont want to die from something I had the ability to control in the first place)
-I want to be a good role model (you never know who is looking up to you for help and guidance)
-I dont want to be scared to do something becuase I think/know I am too big to do it
(West Edmonton Mall - July 2007 - I was too scared to go on a ride in galaxy land with an uber thin friend because I was scared that I was too big and wouldnt be able to go on the ride and would have to suffer the humilation of getting back off to go sit on the side lines so I made up an excuse and insisted she ride alone, ps I did this more than once that day!)

And my most important reason to lose weight
- I want to prove to myself that I am so much more than I ever thought I had to potenial to be. At my highest weight I was really depressed and never thought I would even make it this far ever! If I can go all the way and get to goal and maintain and totally rock my own life then I will prove my fat self wrong. I know in my heart of hearts that I rock (I promise I dont have a big ego!) but I think that I need to do more for myself (such as staying OP and losing weight and feeling better) to be able to have something to be proud of the validate to myself that I am just awesome! Its all about accomplisment, at this point in my life losing weight is one of the biggest things I will have ever done for myself! I have been through a lot but I cant say I have ever really done anything huge for myself. I am a very giving and loving person I will easily do things for others but when I think about it there is not really much I have ever done just for the benefit of me that nobody else could do for me! If I can accomplish this... now thats special!

Now the most important question:
HOW do I fix this?

So to sum it all up:
-I GOT fat because I didnt exercise (which is also part of why I am still fat)
-I got fatter becuase I am an emotional eater and I binge eat and I had some big tradgic things happen in my life that would definitely cause me to eat
-I got fat because I didnt know how to take care of myself properly (I honestly believe this, I think that the more you learn about nutrition and proper eating the scarier your old habits become, look at the foods I ate... clearly I knew that they werent healthy but Look at what I let myself do to my body!)

No moving + too much food = Big Fat Ass!

-I am STILL fat becuase I still dont exercise
-I am still fat becuase I still binge
-I am still fat becuase I am not trying hard enough to control myself
-I am still fat because being depressed by winter blahs makes me not want to do anything!

Again No moving + too much food = A big fat ass!

So how do I fix the path that I was on, and am on.

-I NEED to start realizing that a bad day CAN end as a good day. (if you have a bad moment you can only work to make it better!)
-I NEED to exercise and stick with it, exercise keeps you healthy!
-I NEED to learn to control myself when it comes to food
-I NEED to keep my trigger foods out of my house
-I NEED to continue to plan my days, meals, exercise track my points etc

the biggest thing I need to do to continue to lose weight and get to goal

I NEED to try harder and be more strict with myself.
When I get in my "oh I ruined today" mood I dont tell myself to smarten up. If I were more strict with ok that was a bad meal suck it up and get it together for the next meal - maybe then it would be easier to prevent these week long bad eating fits.

Overall the most important thing for me to remember is I have lost 46 pounds. Thats amazing for me considering every time ive ever tried to lose weight before I havent succeeded.

A special note for all of you who have read this entire post,THANK YOU and also I dont think that I have a big fat ass! It is looking much better after 46 pounds! I just am very blunt when I write!

So I guess this is it for now... I feel oddly lighter right now so maybe I really did just need to think about why. Its good to reflect sometimes. Hopefully now I can use what ive learned and discovered today to my advantage to get back on track and get there.

What are YOUR whys?

Till next time

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Back To Work

Its that day again, first day back to work! Which means I have plenty of time to update my blog. I wasnt really online much over my 4 days off so an update is probably due.

BFF goes back to work on tuesday for two weeks up in Fort McMurray. It is going to be lonely but I figure I will take the time to do my spring cleaning (see I want it to be warm so badly that I just pretend that spring cleaning will make spring come like ...tomorrow!) I did a little bit this week (probably worked up some AP's doing it too!) But I want to get it completed, my house as been a mess for a while as ive been too tired from working to do anything (plus winter blahs!)

I missed WI day on monday *oopsies* but I feel great so im sure that I did just fine. I will report back on monday to let everybody know what my 2 week loss/gain is.

Other than that my life has been pretty boring. I managed to pick up my pay cheque on wednesday and have all by 50 dollars spent by thursday morning (aaah bills!) I pay on my credit card and line of credit everytime I get paid so thats half of my cheque right there... this is another reason im really wanting that new job, better hours, more of them and bigger pay cheques even if I made less money per hour!

So for now I am going to wrap this one up but just wanted to let everybody know that I am still here just been on days off and when I have something interesting to say I will tell you!

Ps it was one of the girls birthdays today, there is cake AND kfc in teh fridge OH CRAP (i dont like kfc so its all good but i was craving cake yesterday)

Sunday, February 3, 2008

A letter to my ass!

To my lazy fat ass:

Please note as of sometime this week, preferably tomorrow you will no longer be able to be lazy or fat. If you do not stop eating like a crazy person AND start getting off the couch and moving around a little you will become even more lazy and that much more fat and that is totally 100% not acceptable.

So tomorrow when you get home from sitting down all night at work, you will go and get that stability ball you bought with the intention of exercising and blow it up and use it. Also since it is no longer -40 out you can go outside for a walk it wont kill you princess!

From 7am onward you have to move around a little each and everyday, no ifs ands or buts. Just ask yourself: "What would shrunk do?" it will solve all your lazy related problems!

If you do not comply, you are so fired



Saturday, February 2, 2008


I just realized that I deleted my whole blog and I DID have some rewards for myself for when I got to a certain goal previously posted on my blog! However, things change so does my mind (and quite often at that hahaha) so I have a new list of goals (that I dont think I really had planned out that far before) and thought up some rewards that I will buy myself to reaching said goals.

My 50% there goal - New wallet and purse... why... becuase my stupid purse decided to bust the zipper on me one random morning on the way home from work (i swear it was not broken when I got in the car, it was when I got home!)

168 lbs - havent picked out anything yet but I will let you know after I hit 185... I will have to think about it haha, maybe I will go pick a new pair of glasses out or something, I will keep you all posted

152 lbs - I have no clue why I picked this number, I think its half way between healthy weight and goal weight... anyway I am going to get my hair cut and colored at this point... I need to wait a few more months for it to be long enough for me to cut all the black dye out of it (like a year and a half after the fact!)

Goal - this super cute dress i saw in the catologue me thinks, and a cute pair of shoes to match it!

I still plan on getting tattooed all to hell (haha that makes it sound like I dont want to but I do! I just like to say things differently) But that depends on money and I am not exactly rich right now!

I also plan on using the money from my change jar to try to buy a treadmill in the next few months... It will be a big investment as they are pretty expensive but canadian tire has them on sale all the time and it will be worth it, I loved having a treadmill at home when I was living with mom and dad. It will help for the cold weather days when I dont want to leave my house!

Till next time

Friday, February 1, 2008

The Road Not Taken - Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Goodbye January

Hello February!
I am going to start this post by summing up the month of January. I decided that I needed to get my act together because taking the 2 month hiatus plus the plateau I "suffered" earlier this year has "set me back" per se. I am no further ahead but I am lucky, and thankful, that I have not gained any of my weight back. I am 100% confident that I will get to goal and be able to maintain for good!

So January 1st I said this is it, no more pop (yes sadly I did start drinking it again over xmas but today is day 31/32 of not having it again, I gave it up Jan 1st) cut back (wayyy back) on junk food and get back OP.

I didnt actually start following my points and WW until Monday January 7th but that WI I was 194.5 lbs. I am currently 189 - so for the month of January I lost 5.5 pounds! Most people who are trying to lose weight would think only 5.5 pounds but really every ounce adds up. Besides, do you know the last time I weighed anything in the 180's? I can honestly tell you it was at least 5 years ago before I graduated high school! Looking at the overall picture, 5 pounds is a big deal to me :) I am proud of myself and hope to lose another 5 pounds (or more) next month.

I am suffering a small case of the winter blahs this past week. I am having a hard time tracking but I am still making conscious decisions about what im eating and portion control. I havent written it on paper but I have counted my points in my head, tonight I know I did go over but thats ok, tomorrow is a new day and I just have to remind myself that I do better when I write everything down!

I am honestly considering planning out each meal of my day the night before so I can use my points more wisely. Today I am debating having a 6 inch sub from subway for 7 points or I could have a nice bowl of cornflakes for 3 points... Clearly i would save myself 4 points but I know a sub would be uber satisfying! But today sometime I will sit down and really think about the path I am on (I am on a good path, dont get me wrong, but I want to take the best path)

So my plan for today is to start fresh (gotta love a brand new day, and the first day of a new month!) I will re-read my materials (that always gives me a boost) and track, plan, and do my best!

I will probably update tomorrow as I am working again for the next 2 nights!

Till next time
Keep fit and have fun *queue body break music* hahaha
(this fun 80s moment was brought to you by Candace's lack of sleep for the day)
*big puffy heart*

Monday, January 28, 2008

WI day

It is monday so I jumped on my scale this morning. I am down 1.5lbs this week. Hooray! 4 more pounds until my Valentines day goal. I find it totally helps to give myself time frames and since valentines day is sorta a holiday I chose that... its easy to mark off the calendar by holidays!

Not much has been going on these past few days. We went over to a friends place to play pictionary last night. It was so much fun! I havent played it since I was a little girl. Neither had anybody else in the group.

Not really doing much today as its like -40 with the windchill and ... yeah I am NOT leaving my house!! Im sure you can all agree why I wouldnt want to and shouldnt hahaha

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Yay new old photos

So today I had a really shitty sleep. I ended up getting up and showered and sat on the couch with BFF for a while. He was on the computer and showed me some pics from when we vacationed in Jasper in July. Well there is one of me sitting on the bed in our hotel room and my god... I am SO FAT!!! I seriously said outloud "oh my god, look at me!?!". However I am making great progress so I dont need to worry about looking that fat anymore AND I can also use it as inspiration

So congrats boys and girls you get another picture of me in a "before like state" (becuase techincally this photo is "during" however the term "before like state" will suffice for any picture I post until i get to my goal weight hahaha)


There it is... all I can say is... WOW !

Anyway 2 more days until WI... I dont really have anything exciting to say other than Weight watchers rocks... I made burgers and fries for supper and it tasted awesome and I stayed OP so BAM take that!

Friday, January 25, 2008

Oops I just deleted EVERYTHING... on purpose!

Ok So I haven't updated my blog in such a long time I decided for the hell of it to delete everything and start fresh.
First of all I was on hiatus from WW and I restarted that and got back on track... so I was thinking if I restarted WW... why not restart my blog.

So instead of having this on the side I'm just gonna post it and update goals each weigh in I guess.

Loss to Date - 45 pounds
Started WW at 235.5 pounds - April 17Th 2007
10% reached June 5Th 2007
NO LONGER OBESE - July 17Th 2007
Onderland reached September 3 2007

Current goals
50% there/valentines day challenge - 4/9 lbs
Healthy Weight BMI (168lbs) - 4/26.5 lbs
Bday goal - 4/59.5 lbs
Labour of Love - 7.5/63.5lbs

So yeah I had rewards all picked out for when I met certain goals but things change and people become broke so for now I am just thinking them up as I go and i have decided since my purse decided to break on me (the zipper is busted) That when i hit 185lbs I will buy myself a new purse and wallet... I'm actually setting aside the money for it as I am brokeity broke broke!!

Also when I hit that point I will be down exactly 50 pounds and I shall take a new photo to add to my horrifying before photo collection so everybody can see how much better I look! Its kind of scary to think that the next time I go home to Nova Scotia I will probably be so thin that nobody will recognize me...but it will be awesome!

I am going to edit my previous photos i have posted to try to have like a side by side thing going between the 235 pound and 205 pound photos.. then when I hit 185 I will do a side by side comparison of the 235 and 185's for shits and giggles :D

There so much easier to see the before and during that way. I am sooo gonna do the same thing when i take my next update photos. So for now I am just going to leave this post at that and I guess I can try to make it a goal as well to actuallly update my blog!